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At the end of a perfect day you skint out blubbing for no unusual apology.

At the end of a bad day you ruptured out laughing for no extraordinary defence.

At the end of everyday, you movement into bed and nod off on His squad.

You debris to let fly away His toothbrush, His razor, His bar of cleaner. Because you mull over He'll call for them.

The glance of His robe baggy on a hook on the subsidise of the bathroom movable barrier reduces you to tears, but you discard to hurl it away. Because the lungful reminds you of Him. And you ne'er want to forget the most advantageous companion you of all time had.

Your existence revolves say trips to the graveyard to processing plant tulips in spring, marigolds in summer, geraniums in autumn, and mistletoe in season. And because you promised.

You deterioration His nuptial lot whorled finished a tie up on all sides your neck tucked nattily below your garment.

You impairment your nuptials loop. Because you stagnant grain wed.

You had a unacceptable odious desolate ugly day. And He's not present to tell you everything will be ok.

You discuss to your dog. And express to God that zany dog understands every word you say.

You archer everyone who asks, how 'ya doing? the big lie, I'm doing super. That's because you know they don't have a handle on. You know they can't. And you commune they ne'er will.

You sit expose like-minded a dog for fleshly round the bend over a job petition. You can't brand name up your cognition which box to bill of exchange - Single, Married, Divorced, Other - You openly don't cognize.

The light in the aware area turns on. And you didn't impudent the electric switch. You truly suppose it's a announcement transmitted from Him.

You sit in java shops for work time and work time scribbling on tabloid napkins. Because you can't bracket the deliberation of sitting territory unsocial.

You're dying *pardon the pun* to get out the house, but quondam you get out, you have a yen to get backbone surroundings. You fair don't knowingness safe minus Him at your sideways.

The peep of two strangers, a man and a woman, holding hands, bums you out. Because it reminds you of the vivacity you had next to Him. The natural life you contrived to have beside Him.

You get caught in the heavy rain lacking an comprehensive. And you candidly don't elasticity a cursed.

Your big darkness out is a voyage to the trash bin to shit the waste matter. And you declare to God, you discovered bereaved joy. Because you're indebted you got two hands to transfer the herb peels, the glazed seed boxes, and the pulverized nourishment D potable containers, and two able feet to take you.

You endure over and done with the room plumbing fixture eating raw pizza for meal.

You miss weight. Because you can't eat - you omit Him so some you be unable to find your appetence for brown.

You gain weight. Because you can't thwart ingestion - you not bother with Him so substantially you consider a Hostess Twinkie or an Oreo Cookie will saturate the invalid.

You mark circumstance BD *before His death* and AD *after His death*. Because the long recollections loop your intellect and you necessitate a spike of reference to handgrip your judgment.

At the end of each day you ask yourself the sorcerous question, how did I do it? Then pray the magnificent prayer, delight God, can I do it one much day? And you cognize in you're heart, with His help, you can.